Sitting here letting the dust settle from a busy weekend out of state. I was blessed with the opportunity to attend a 3 day leadership retreat in Palm Springs, Ca this weekend. It was truly the most profound experience I've had and my heart is so full coming out of it. This weekend I was reminded of how faithful our God is and how he continues to pursue us,  no matter where we are on our journey with him. For months, I've been struggling to find balance in my life. Balance in juggling family life and my business while staying devoted to my faith and the calling God has placed on my life. I've strugged with feelings of stress and anxiety over trying to do it all. Come on Moms, I know you feel me!  I've known for months that I've needed a change but in my heart I didn't know how.. or what to do. I've been praying consistently for peace and wisdom, to know the direction I needed to go to truly find this balance. Through all my prayers, I've heard silence. I know God hears my prayers, the bible tells me so, so I wasn't sure WHY He was silent. After one rather challenging day, I pleaded with God.. "Lord, please give me direction, what am I supposed to do.." and for the first time I was comforted with "Have faith.. just have faith in Me" So I did. I kept on moving and believing that I would find my way.

I look back and now it all makes sense. You see, God was silent because the message He wanted to give me was one that couldn't come in a form of a whisper on my heart. He wanted it bold. He wanted it to make an IMPACT and be undeniable. He wanted to give me the direction and the wisdom, but it would take time to prepare and plan this leadership retreat to provide me with those things. So, in his silence, he wasn't ignoring me.. He was simply working behind the scenes to make sure everything was just right to give me the message I so desperately needed.  As I sat there and listened to the speakers talk, my heart raced and tears filled my eyes. The answers I've been so desperately needing poured from their mouths. This weekend I was able to not only get answers but I was able to see the vision for my life that I've been so unsure about. God was present this weekend and pursuing me harder than ever before. It's funny how God uses ordinary things, like in my case, a business leadership retreat, to completely change our lives. That's what I want to share with you about today.

God is an amazing God. He loves us and so desperately wants us to have a relationship with him, to the extent that he pursues us. It's not like "take it or leave it" kind of relationships that we are all to familiar with. God is madly in love with us and pursuing us. However,  sometimes it's easy to feel like God has forgotten us, that he doesn't hear our prayers, but he does! Jeremiah 29:12 says, "Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you." Just like I have done many many times,  I encourage you to lift up your desires, struggles and heartache to God and wait expectantly on Him. Don't let your discouragement prevent you from continuing to seek God. Just because the answer hasn't come yet, don't mean it's not coming, it simply means God has a plan for you that may take some preparation. He's setting up the stage and working everything out and sometimes that takes time. So, my dear friends, rest assure that your answer is coming and when it does, it will be the absolute best answer for you. God is faithful and the bible reminds us that all good things work together for our good (Romans 8:28). He heard my daily prayers for wisdom and direction and he hears your prayers too. Don't lose hope, pray without ceasing and wait expectantly. Your answer is coming too!