The topic of change has been on my heart this week. More specifically, is it possible for people to really change? This answer often seems to be dependent upon if you are a "glass half empty or half full" kind of person. If you know me.. my glass is always half full. Butterflies and rainbows, remember? I have to admit though, even though I truly believe people can change I find myself wondering if I can ever truly change. Will I ever get better organized? Will I become better self disciplined? I feel confident in saying I'm a work in progress and I'm so thankful for God's grace, because heaven knows I need it. I find myself wondering, "Why is it so easy to for me believe change is possible for other people but struggle with the belief that I can really change myself?
I don't know about you, but I can get on a really good streak where I'm in a good routine. I feel confident, I'm moving forward and things are going well. FINALLY I'm figuring it out. Then.. Bam! I get sick, the kids get sick, my plate gets way too full and I crumble. My good streak goes right out the window and I'm back to square one. Frustration. Disappointment. Dare I even whisper failure. If I believe in change, why can't I figure this all out?! So, as I was driving home from a rather frustrating day, eating a chocolate chip cookie (even though I swore off all sweets) a song on the radio spoke directly to my heart. I've heard this song many times, it's a great song, but this day God used a song to send me a message. And that message: Even though I mess up, even though I'm not qualified, and even in my biggest mess, He knows my heart. He knows my name. He has chosen ME and it's not because of all that I am or am not.
